たびたび狂乱状態に陥り、私の自己性を侵害して来たポルトガルの元相方が最後にくれた言葉は"kusou gaki"(クソガキ)であった。 下記はその"kusou gaki"であるところの私が奴さんに送った、最後のEメールの後半部分からの抜粋である。
******************************************************* [...] Excuse me, but it seems that you had been too maniac with various meanings.
Your sensitivity is great, not sarcasm. Trance and mystical experience often give some secrets of the world to us. Oh, psychedelia ! Hallelujah !
And, our lives are the worst and too melancholic to survive. Unfortunately, we must listen to Nirvana and it is just like daily routine, isn't it? Holy cow !
But, do not lose yourself and do come to yourself. Selflessness ? I HATE THIS EXTREMELY SHITABLE WORD.
I'm not a part of you. You are you. I am me. Each of us has our own uniqueness. What a simple truth...
By the way, do you know Max Stirner ?
He is a great philosopher and thinker in the history of German ideological history. But, on the other hand, he was living as a really common milk dealer. I can say nothing but that he was just an egoist from Bavaria.
Nevertheless, he is an example for me to emulate. I think we should recognize our independence each other. And when we burn with enthusiasm about or are driven insane by something, at the same time, we should give a glacial look to that. Please keep yourself. Don't forget your own ego.
If you love wisdom - though I hear Philosophy has such nuance -, why don't you read Stirner's "Der Einzige Und Sein Eigenthum (The Unique One And Its Own)" ?
O único e sua propriedade – Wikipédia, a enciclopédia livre https://pt.wikipedia.org/wiki/O_%C3%BAnico_e_sua_propriedade
This is just advice to you. First in order not to lose yourself. Second, in order to avoid something against your interests. And finally, in order not to kill your "best friend".
Bye. *******************************************************
かつて私の送った鼻歌に、彼は遊びで「壊れた人間」という歌詞を添えた。(その歌は本来、壊れた時計の針について歌っていたのであるが。) 確かに!私も彼も「壊れた人間」であった。にも関わらず、私と彼との繋がりは唯一者の「連合」としては実現しなかった。彼が熱に浮かされていた時、その一方で、私は真逆と言えるほどに冷淡であった。 彼は絆を夢想した。私は連合を計画した。何れにせよ、それは束の間の夢であったが!おお、「壊れた人間」同士の繋がり、そのなんと儚いことか!!
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